http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgi-G-dHYkY
This song on so many levels defines my life to this point.
Some lessons that we learn are learned, but then need to be reminded of them. You'll often hear me say, "We're all human!" To some, this may come across as an excuse for sin and our shame but I do not use this in such a way! I use it to simply state that we are human! God expects our best, doing everything as if it were for Him (can't quickly think of the bible reference there, my bad!) Our intentions and our heart is what God looks at. I'm talking in terms of learning things about ourselves here, learning who we are in Christ. I often forget that; worldly securities become more domineering and I let go of what God thinks, slipping back into thinking I'm worthless and not what God wants.
"The Return of the Prodigal Son" by Henri J.M Nouwen is the book that helped me through this, and my mentor at the time. It took me a year to figure out who I was in God, throwing all the things others thought of me out the window, coming to know that I was loved for who I was, not who people and the world wanted me to be. Yet sometimes, the words of those around me again slip into my mindset and become my perception for a short space of time before I am reminded of God's JUST GRACE and satisfying love.
And so, sometimes still, the word's of others get to me.
I know I am justified by God.
I may fall down, I may slip up, I may be a a bit rough around the edges, but I am a W.I.P (work in progress) and God loves me for my dodgey eye, my fat face, my insecurities, my difficulty to trust others, my pains, my protectiveness etc... because that's who He wanted me to be!
"I am more choices that I've made.
I am more than the sum of my past mistakes.
I am more than the problems I create.
I've been remade."
I know who I am and I am working to be like the Father, are you?
